I was just trying to sleep and I saw an image in my head that the Lord used to give me a personal revelation. So praise Jesus!

            Picture a juggler. How easy is it for him to throw one ball up and down? Add another ball and it is a bit harder and add ten more and all of his balls will fall including the one.

            We must not entertain ourselves with more than one truth. The Devil loves to throw exra objects to go along with truths and the longer we juggle them, the more apt our world is going to come crashing down.

            Luckily, we can never drop our salvation. But, we can be used to throw our extra balls into non-believer's hands. That is why we must not believe anything outside from the truth.

            91.5 Christian radio conducted a survey about what Christians thought about sex before marriage. It was scary to hear the percentage of people that gave their answers based on their own life's compromises. This is a ball people are juggling alongside the truth. The Bible says we are to abstain until marriage. Many other compromises are made in our lives and we can lead other Christians to add a lie to their truth ball. Let us always take out our opinion and toss one truth around, which is the Gospel.

            Now, thankfully we are all, like Pastor Nathan said today, on level ground, all rotten sinners. Read Romans 3:9-20. We are all unrighteous and thankfully the God of the universe has a plan and he will pluck lies out of thin air and replace them with truth because he is gracious. What I have been struggling with is spiritual pride.  Looking at what I have been doing and feeling it is making me more right with God. I now see this as impossible. Romans 3:23: We all fall short of God's glorious standard. I have been trying so hard to live up to God's standard that I have missed out on the joy of juggling one ball. The cross is enough. Romans 3:27: "Can we boast, then, that we have done anything to be accepted by God? No, because our acquittal is not based on obeying the law. It is based on faith...does this me we can forget about the law? Of course not!"

            I want to share a poem with you because it is my way to put to words where I am at. I wrote it when I could only pray Jesus, Jesus. Writing was the only way I could come to grips with I am rotten and will be free from sin only when I get to Heaven. For now, I cling to the Old Rugged Cross.

One Who is Forgiven, One Who is Forgiveness

Lord,

I can't promise you I will be perfect like you can promise me I'll be forgiven.

My soul aches,

Lift my heavy yoke.

Like the faithful three I want to plunge into the unknown fate.

My heart hates sin,

Free me from my shackles,

Take the scales from my eyes.

I want to run the race you have picked out for me,

For your will is perfect,

You are divine,

Forgiving,

My joy,

Peace, strength, my clothes for the day,

I wear prostitutes clothing and my sins are many.

You are the redeemer of all,

Savior from the jaws of death,

Choosing you is not like a card game,

It is no gamble.

I use a heroine addict's needles to mutilate joy.

You take the broken and not those on self-appointed grandstands and

betterment.

I seek darkness so that I match my shadow.

You offer white towels of forgiveness for all, forever.

I now open my arms in faith that you will heal my wounds,

Clean my pores,

Shine light like a doctor into my eyes,

Lead me up cliffs with ropes.

For you know the terrain,

Your every step is firm and you made the map,

Made the danger signs,

 I need you, Jesus.

Jesus, I need you.

Father, Father

Bring me back to the trail heading

The sign is a cross

And this is sufficient,

Thank you Jesus,

Amen.